30 Mar 2005 -- This morning's waking-up fantasy was Russ, tied to a chair naked for me. I'm straddling him, tits in his face, telling him what a good sex toy he makes, pumping up and down on his cock, when Leah comes by and she kisses me, rolls my nipples between her fingers, even slides her hand down between us to rub my clit, and I don't know if it's the additional physical stimulation of my cunt walls clenching around him or the visual stimulation of us making out inches from his face, but this is when Russ loses control and pounds into me in his orgasm.

There was also a lot of thought about Amelie, a chance for a little privacy with her, maybe after her roommates go to sleep for the night, when she and I have already been cuddled up to one another throughout whatever movie or TV we were all watching in a darkened room. But now that others are sleeping and we're alone, instead of just stroking her shoulders I can give her a face-to-face embrace and a long kiss on the mouth. The upper slope of her breasts presses against the lower slope of mine as I pull her even closer -- lift her up and swing her onto the bed, for a giggle.

26 Apr 2005 -- Amelie continues creeping into my brain, both in her own self (in the shower I was slipping two fingers inside myself and moaning her name as I bent them into that perfect spot) and via Buffy. After watching The Wish this morning and seeing the alternate universe Vampire Willow and Xander torturing captive Angel, I thought of all kinds of not-suitable-for-TV sweet tortures for them. (Hey, I guess I have to identify with nerdy, good-hearted types turning into confident sexy evil vampires -- it would be the only way to implant some confidence in us.) It's also interesting for the characters -- in all the fanfiction I've read that has Xander with any guy, he's invariably bottom and/or submissive, so it would be different to make him dominant.